To the stars, with love

i’ve been really busy having training over at marina square, and it’s a mighty long way to walk from city hall station at 0915 in the morning. jesus christ i can fucking die from the distance.

but it’s been so fun, learning new stuff and making the most wonderful friends, including the people(gen haini irene) i’ll be working with for 9 weeks, gen’s my new buttcrack/full of shit/12-year-old/cheater friend i know you’ll probably read this after your xmas shopping or something, hello remember our brownie with ice cream tmr (:

back to school tmr, the weird thing is?
i’m actually looking forward to it, especially friday.

it’s amazing what friends can do for you (:

taking buses around singapore, from east coast to clementi to thomson to hougang to jurong east to bedok. adding 10 extra dollars into my card just so i could travel around in buses.

yes, i ran away. i switched my phone off, ran off from work during my break, and kept my entire family crying and worrying about me. friends called a million times, i felt horrible.

i am not naturally a problem-solver, i merely run away from things and hide the truth from myself when i know i won’t be able to take it. running away from everything that i held dear did not help, it only hindered me further. and it is true, sometimes listening to your parents pays off.

i am a rash person who do thing irrationally without thinking about the subsequent consequences. i hate myself for being spoilt by my parents, hence resulting in a spoilt kid now who refuses to take NO for an answer and wanting everything done my way.

enough of the emo crap, i’ve decided what to do. i’ve finally learnt my lesson. and oh, novena square soon at either 1230 or 6pm to catch another glimpse(and video) of cute ice skater who held my gaze so long with his intense eyes i swear i almost fainted.

Fill the space that’s between us
Feel the magic that keeps love alive

so a friend asked about trust and broken promises. truth be told, despite having advised her on what to do, i don’t know what to do with my own life right now.

school’s starting and i’m pretty relieved, but yet pretty sad that the holidays are coming to an end and i don’t get to wake up whenever i want to (:

work’s coming up. more shidah and joanne, yay

for now, more episodes of projectrunway season2, danielv and pretty pretty dresses.

work is so fucking very tiring, especially when i get a call in the middle of my break telling me to work the full shift today. but it’s okay, thank god shidah’s working with me toooo (: ANT ANT ANT ANT

i need a feet massager. and yay tmr i get to go collect my pay & get blonde streaks done! yeeeeeeeeha

yes i may have been very unlucky in my life to cross paths with the biggest fuckers in the entire universe, but i guess i’m lucky to have the wonderful-est friends in the world.

wanxin, for rushing over to my place after i told her i didn’t want to be alone today.
cha2, for calling me (almost)immediately after i msged her to see if i’m okay.
fuzhen, for making me laugh with your (very)stupid jokes HAHAHAHAH.
aiping, for seeing the lighter side to everything.
wifey, for the best and tightest hugs ever.
manda, for being you because i love you so much.
smelly, for always telling me what i want to hear and whining so much it makes me laugh.
yeleng, for sending me 2 long msgs when i tell you i’m depressed.
weewee, for annoying me so much i love you hahahah.
elaine, for always telling me that i will be fine.
shuyi, for being there all the time.

i love you all very, very much.
BIG HUGS AND KISSES,
sam.

all damn fucked up, these people. they never take a hint, no matter how fucking obvious those hints are.

work has been tiring, my feet have felt sore like fuck recently. i had a great lunch today, shidah, you rawwwwwk hahahaha. new friends today, thanks for helping me pass the time. pay day’s next week, wee hee. money money money. (:

ok i’ve got next week almost planned out, yay. tiffy audrey girlfriends chingtong, YAY i miss all these people so much.

rot; (used to express disagreement, distaste, or disgust.)
burn; To execute or kill with fire
lying; a false statement made with deliberate intent to deceive

in conclusion,
ROT AND BURN, YOU LYING MOFO.

boys are nothing but disgusting filthy creatures who crave intimacy all the fucking time.

fuck you all, teenage boys of the world, for you all deserve to be struck by lightning and run over by cement mixer trucks. continue two-timing all your girlfriends, and we will all see you burning in hell.

with the exception of cute boy on level 10 hahahahah he’s so adorable

i’m pretty sure shopping releases endorphins into your body, because it made me so happy after i finally managed to shop today haha (: work tmr, i’m so exhausted but i’ve got no choice.

lately i’ve been falling asleep alot in buses/trains and my ipod keeps slipping out of my hand. okay not related, but in conclusion, shopping makes me happy.

Cover up with make up in the mirror
tell yourself it’s never gonna happen again

hello i’m finally eighteen and i must say it was quite a good day filled with trillions of ‘awws’ to people who bothered wishing me and bothered buying me presents, i love you all very much (:

yes i know i’m legal for almost everything, i’m still not going to club/smoke/drink, i’m such a fucking good kid who swears abit too much nowadays, but other than that i think i’m doing quite fine as a normal girl.

friends friends friends are all that matter now cos to me, they’re always going to be there for me when i cry and tell me that everything’s going to be fine and buy me cakes and surprise me and give me hugs and have lunches with me and buy me sweet presents and hang out with me when i’m down.

i love you all.

school tmr again because we need to do stuff, dinner with the girls on thursday, indochine with smelly soon, work on the weekends, what an exciting life.

i’ve finally had enough